True Confessions

Note: in my last post, I used the word “unraveling” to describe the devil’s actions toward my family. It was a poor choice of words, seeing that we’re not really coming apart at the seams, just experiencing some growing pains that most families go through. It’s new ground for me, however, and ground I never wanted to walk on.


This is true confessions, folks. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m in the middle of a whitewater rafting trip, and I’m thinking to myself, “I don’t think I want to go whitewater rafting!”

Life has its ups and downs, and sometimes it seems like there are more downs than ups. Someone in the family gets sick, we cut ourselves preparing dinner, homeschooling is more like dentistry, and the house looks like a typhoon came through. And it’s only Monday.

The Christian life is full of challenges. Whoever said it was easy being a Christian never tried accomplishing anything worthwhile for the Lord. It’s easy to get discouraged, tired, and burned out as we give and give and give.

It’s like a whitewater rafting trip that we never intended on going on.

The events in my life lately got me thinking about living by faith. Often we think of “living by faith” as something done only by missionaries, pastors, or evangelists. But each of us are to live by faith, and as ladies, if we follow our husbands, we are living by faith, just like Sarah who followed Abraham.

1. Sometimes those that live by faith have a wild ride.
I’ve heard it likened to riding on the back of a motorcycle: we are not in charge of the destination or the speed; we’re along for what sometimes can be a rough ride.

2. Sometimes those that live by faith have restrictions that they’re not fond of.
Recently I’ve made some very difficult decisions, and it seems like most things are things I’m NOT doing, so that I can focus more time and energy on my family. It reminds me of the essay “Others May, You May Not.”

3. Sometimes those that live by faith never see the fruition of their labors.
This is the bit one that gets me lately. Life is full of uncertainty: what if the economy collapses? What if persecution starts? and worst of all, What if I pour my life into my children, only to have them grow up and blow off Christianity?

Much as we would like it, the Christian life does not come with a guarentee that all will be great in this life. In fact, there’s a section in the Hall of Faith in Hebrews 11 dedicated to just those people who have sacrificed greatly as they lived for God. However, their lives provided fertile ground for the gospel to grow in future generations. Though they did not see the benefit of their sacrifice, it was there nonetheless. And, Lord willing, so will be mine.

Personally, I know I can waste a lot of energy wondering and agonizing over the “whys” of life. It’s better for me to accept the whys, and use my energy to change the current path to a better one.

Sometimes we may find ourselves on a “whitewater rafting trip;” it’s time to live by faith throughthe pounding waves!